Hello there!!
Today was a wonderful day and I wanted to share it with you...this the second year in a row that my sister, the boys and C come to my apt and help me decorate for Christmas...They help me do this because my whole living room has to be completely changed in order to get it ready for Christmas dinner, which I host here. My whole family comes and if it is not done just right...we don't all fit for dinner. It is so much fun having them over...it is a time to be together and talk...in these days when we are all so busy..what with school and work...it is very difficult sometimes to just "hang out"...and this affords us the perfect opportunity. Well, thanks to my sister's decorating expertise and every one's hard work...my apt looks amazing and festive...I love the fact that we are creating new traditions and that I can have an impact in my "kids" lives. My sister has always let me be as involved in their lives as time will allow and I really feel that I had a part in their becoming the wonderful young adults that they have become...
Work is still a challenge but I am doing the absolute very best that I can to make it work. Getting along with "different" personalities is not always easy..but I pray and with the grace of God..I get through every day....I believe that in the long run..it will have been worth it!
OK, here is my obstacle right now....eating right has been a real difficulty these last few weeks...I have been going back to a lot of my old ways...I don't know if it is the holidays, stress or just nervous eating...but I have been making some bad choices...not horrible ones like before the surgery..but ones that just indicate that something is wrong..and I don't want to go down the wrong path again...I have postponed my adjustments a couple of times and I don't think that is a good idea...my schedule has just been a nightmare..but I have to get there SOON! I am afraid that if I don't reel myself in that I will end up in the dangerous part of the ocean and once again drown...
There is a ad on TV about the lap band that has a few heavy people say.."if I just have the surgery"....then I can...(and everyone fills in what they want to do that they can't while they are heavy..)...for example: 'if I just have the surgery then I can run and play with my children again...'...I have a problem with that ad because it makes it sound like if you just have the surgery..then everything else just falls into place....THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT...but the joke is on me...HA! It still takes a lot of work, focus, determination and discipline...the weight doesn't just fall off your body....and THAT'S what the ad should say....
Anyway...I am praying for strength and courage to continue the journey...I have a goal of 25lbs by my surgery anniversary date...if I get there...then I will finally reveal my starting weight....that is the one thing that I have not been able to tell anyone....so keep your fingers crossed!!
I have started to go out there and try to meet new people again...my cousin gave me a great website...www.meetup.com...it has helped me meet some people and I will continue doing that...who knows maybe my prince is still out there...he may have a cane or walker..but he could still be out there..."it could still happen"...I truly believe that...I still would like to be married and settled even if it is for the "golden years"...
I am trying very hard to take care of ME...make sure I am healthy, well maintained and as happy as I can be for now...something that I am not used to doing...so send over your good vibes...
Well, that's it for now...
Happy Holidays....and...
CL8 y'all
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Friday, December 4, 2009
It's that time of year....
when the holidays come...rather unexpectedly...I mean we know when they are on the calendar..but they always seem to sneak up on us and we say stuff like "is it the holidays already?"
The holidays are always hard for me...Thanksgiving is a time when my mom's presence is missed a billion times more than the rest of the year. This was her holiday...it was always dinner at our house..ALL the family members...it was her thing and no matter how many times she used to say "this is the last year I am doing this"...the beginning of November would come along and there she was preparing for her big day...she would stock up on the groceries..make sure she had enough boxes of "Missus Cassabasse" (Mrs. Cubisons)stuffing mix and picking the perfect turkey was always the goal..then she would yell at all 3 of us because she thought we weren't helping enough....but the day was always perfect...dinner would be amazing and love was always present at that very long table with all the family around...
I miss those days..but my sister, Paula, does a fantastic job in re-creating that warm feeling and the wonderful food. The stuffing, which was my mother's pride and joy...no one could make it quite like hers...but Paula has perfected it and it is the closest to my mother's than anyone else...
We all drove to Arizona together..I know...I said we would never drive again..but airfare was crazy...
The drive was great...I think is was because we were all in one vehicle. My dad kept me company..talking to me about lots of things...while I drove the long 6 hours to Arizona...he spoke of old times...his sadness concerning the status of his family...I am sure that he would love it if we could all get along better, and could be together during holidays...my other passengers slept the whole way and were not any help in keeping me awake and entertained...
The 3 days in Arizona was great...no drama...spent time with my sister (I miss her alot) and were able to see my 2 cousins that live in AZ and their family...I believe a good time was had by all...now on to Christmas...
Lapband update....working toward 100lb loss by my surgery anniversary...January 22...hope I make it...but if not...it's ok...have to work out more than I have been..I walk but it does not seem to be enough...when i have some extra money..I will join gym and get crackin...I feel great though and when I went to Doc for my annual checkup...he said that everything is great!!
and that's what is most important!!!
Lovelife....ok...seriously...I would actually need one to talk about it..don't you think? How about some help, people?
Work...Still need to increase business..but won't complain...working on some stuff and will leave the rest in God's hands...
Well I will leave you with this little diddy from the family archives...one of my elders...you know father, uncle, aunt...I won't name any names...when we were at a restaurant one time wanted to know what a "supersalad" was...wanted to know how big it was....
Well, the reality was the waiter had asked them if they wanted "soup OR salad"...there you go...how about that...
From now on I will try to share these lovely pearls with you...and please understand that it is not to mock or criticize...but to truly appreciate the varied personalities and quirks of the people that come into our lives and how wonderfull and amazing things can transpire...that just make us smile...
OK....
C-L8 y'all
The holidays are always hard for me...Thanksgiving is a time when my mom's presence is missed a billion times more than the rest of the year. This was her holiday...it was always dinner at our house..ALL the family members...it was her thing and no matter how many times she used to say "this is the last year I am doing this"...the beginning of November would come along and there she was preparing for her big day...she would stock up on the groceries..make sure she had enough boxes of "Missus Cassabasse" (Mrs. Cubisons)stuffing mix and picking the perfect turkey was always the goal..then she would yell at all 3 of us because she thought we weren't helping enough....but the day was always perfect...dinner would be amazing and love was always present at that very long table with all the family around...
I miss those days..but my sister, Paula, does a fantastic job in re-creating that warm feeling and the wonderful food. The stuffing, which was my mother's pride and joy...no one could make it quite like hers...but Paula has perfected it and it is the closest to my mother's than anyone else...
We all drove to Arizona together..I know...I said we would never drive again..but airfare was crazy...
The drive was great...I think is was because we were all in one vehicle. My dad kept me company..talking to me about lots of things...while I drove the long 6 hours to Arizona...he spoke of old times...his sadness concerning the status of his family...I am sure that he would love it if we could all get along better, and could be together during holidays...my other passengers slept the whole way and were not any help in keeping me awake and entertained...
The 3 days in Arizona was great...no drama...spent time with my sister (I miss her alot) and were able to see my 2 cousins that live in AZ and their family...I believe a good time was had by all...now on to Christmas...
Lapband update....working toward 100lb loss by my surgery anniversary...January 22...hope I make it...but if not...it's ok...have to work out more than I have been..I walk but it does not seem to be enough...when i have some extra money..I will join gym and get crackin...I feel great though and when I went to Doc for my annual checkup...he said that everything is great!!
and that's what is most important!!!
Lovelife....ok...seriously...I would actually need one to talk about it..don't you think? How about some help, people?
Work...Still need to increase business..but won't complain...working on some stuff and will leave the rest in God's hands...
Well I will leave you with this little diddy from the family archives...one of my elders...you know father, uncle, aunt...I won't name any names...when we were at a restaurant one time wanted to know what a "supersalad" was...wanted to know how big it was....
Well, the reality was the waiter had asked them if they wanted "soup OR salad"...there you go...how about that...
From now on I will try to share these lovely pearls with you...and please understand that it is not to mock or criticize...but to truly appreciate the varied personalities and quirks of the people that come into our lives and how wonderfull and amazing things can transpire...that just make us smile...
OK....
C-L8 y'all
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