Hello all...
Coming along...went in for an "adjustment" and guess what the doctor was a little less than excited with my weight loss....I mean isn't 67lbs good?? He said to exercise and "step it up"...I guess that is his way of "motivation"????
OH, well, I am very proud of myself...I know I have to "get my exercise on" but as a whole right now I am pretty damn proud of myself...
I still get food stuck sometimes and it can get pretty scary....but I have to remember to chew, chew, chew..then swallow...
The mental benefits almost outweigh the physical sometimes...the more I do this...the more I take care of myself....just me..not anyone else..I come to realize how important I am...how great I am...and what a find I am...
There is no need to settle for the mediocre...I am worthy of the best...
I have found new friends...re-connected with old friends and now try to surround myself with people that really appreciate me...the real me...not the one that was always trying to please others...
I feel now that I can say...I am worthy of the best....
Do you guys realize how HUGE that is?? The people that know me, I think can appreciate how huge this is!
I have never thought of myself worthy of much...I always took what I could get..thinking that nothing better would come along...in my work...in my love life...everywhere!!!
Well, guess what people...no more...I am getting better at this...have a long way to go...so much work still left to do...but I am up for it...I am going to be the best Donna I can be....
Those of you that stick around...and appreciate me...bless you!! All the others..see ya!

I am working on my work situation right now and I have to come to some big decisions...next I have to really re-evaluate my love life and how I have handled that badly...but one thing at a time...
I am having the best time...creating a person..that I can respect...

Any thoughts would be appreciated!!

Well, that's all for now...

C-L8, y'all!!

WOW..it's been so long!! Sorry about that...
I try to do better...but things happen and time flies...
Here is my question for today...why do people disappoint us?
Is it because you place your expectations of them to high?
I have always gotten very upset ad taken it very personal and concentrated on how it affected me...how much it hurt me....you know..the "how could they do that to me" syndrome...but I never looked at the other side...did I expect to much....did I set them up to fail? I need to stop being the victim...my happiness does not rely on ANYONE else! Having to deal with my lap band surgery, I have come to realize that no one can make anything happen in MY life except ME...
My happiness is my job! I have done so well...learned how to eat better...portions...
It hasn't been easy....it's been a struggle and I have had to learn about myself...the strength the was always there...I had to find it....deep down inside me...
Don't get me wrong...I have had the strongest support from my family (even my dad) and my friends...but the bottom line it had to come from me...inside me...
So now I have to learn how to deal with disappointment...learn to let people off the hook.
Learn that I can't control the choices other people make...and learn how to let them make those choices without being upset with them. I can't be angry...because I can't control it.
I have to love them and support them as they support me...
So that is my quest for now....

C L8 y'all