It has been a while...but I am back..
Let me catch you up...I have had my first "adjustment"...that was not an easy thing.
Well, let me back up just a bit...while sitting in the waiting room, the lady sitting next to me was trying to explain to me how to get around the "eating" thing...
She tried to give me all the "secrets" on how to eat chips....bread....all the things we should stay away from...she kept going on and on and I was thinking to myself....'that's how I got here'...finding the easy way out...so I finally asked her not to tell me any of these secrets...afterall...I paid so much money to do this...I did not want to fail...like I have in the past....
So now the adjustment....this is where the doctor injects saline into the band to "tighten" it so that less food can pass and you get full faster...at first it was a little strange...the doctor injected about 4cc's of saline and asked me to drink some water....but WOW!...the water would not pass..it was the strangest feeling...so he had to take some out...it was still a little difficult to get the water down but much easier than before...and guess what...back to liquids for at least 24 hours...Yippee...more chicken broth...
The first couple of days was a challenge because it felt so much tighter and a little uncomfortable...I actually had a little incident where some cottage cheese got stuck....I did panic a little...it feels very uncomfortable...and hurts a little...but there is nothing you can do to help it along..except stay calm...breathe deeply..and think happy thoughts...until you feel that "ker plunk" and you know the food has passed...
It has happened again and again and is very unpredictable...just remember not to panic and take deep breathes...keep in mind that drinking liquids during an "incident" does not always help...because the water just sits on top of the food....
So now I have started to eat a little more adult food....not much though because it makes me very nervous and I kinda like being in the "baby food" mode...it is a very safe place...
Stress, depression and sadness can really hinder progress....I have had a few situations that have set me back a bit....a disappointment with my niece D and my sister P....the fact that I don't like my work situation right now and my relationship is just not where I had hoped it would be...
I started to feel all these things bring me down and that my progress was in danger....I went back to church and asked for strength to get me through...I really have to remember that I am the number one most important thing right now and I can't fix all those other things...
So I now think of myself first (which is something I hardly ever do) and not worry about what the others think...loving and taking care of ME has always been difficult...WHY IS THAT?
I did have a great past few days...I have a fantastic relationship with my sis C and she helps me no matter what...we laughed and cried together and I depend on her so much...I hope I am there for her as much as she is for me....
Had to learn a little bad news about my dad's health but nothing that we can't take care of by being proactive and positive...as much as he can frustrate me..I am so not willing to let him go...so I will do what I can to promote his health and wellbeing...

Well, I promise to update more often...until then.....keep smiling and think positive thoughts...