A long tough road ahead....

Hello there...
So, here I am in 2010 and it has NOT been easy so far...you know, every December 31st we think to ourselves that the new year coming will be better...and then...reality sets in...it's just a continuation of the old year....


But I digress....
OK, still a little more history....a few months ago I chose to leave my position in Century City because I felt I was not progressing forward....I decided that I would try to re-build my business and try to earn a discreet living...
Well, that was so NOT to be....I realized that in the travel industry people have a very short memory and loyalty wanes as time passes...you always hear celebrities acknowledging their hair and make-up people, their stylists, their clothes hanger uppers...but NEVER do you hear them say.."my travel agent is great...he/she work their butt off to get me where I need to go"...I think that is very sad because travel agents are the people that get them to those places where Hair and make-up people to their jobs!!! Yeah, I can hear you now..."bitter, party of one"...but think about it...if it wasn't for travel agents and all they do...everyone would be just sitting at home going nowhere....can I hear an "AMEN"....
Also, why can't clients pay their bills??? These people puzzle me......

Anyway, so the building up business thing didn't work...so I am really struggling to get by...I am NOW willing now to read all that SPAM stuff in my email box..with all those get rich quick scams...hmmm...I wonder if this one would work....all I have to do is forward this to 4000 people and I would be rich...how scary is that!!!

You rely on your friends and family for support and some are there for you and surprisingly some are not....and I don't even have the energy to figure out why...you hear things like "I got your back"..."I will always be there for you"...."call me anytime" and "love ya babe" and when it really comes down to it....almost no one is really there...
For those of you who have been there for me (and you know who you are) thank you from the bottom of my heart...and for those of you who have not....hmmmm, I just don't know what to say...

Anyway, I have NOT given up...I am going to make it, no matter what..because I have God on my side and I have turned it all to him...so I am just following his path...

As for weight and exercise (uugh!)..thanks to a very wonderful man and a very inspiring phone call..I am going to start going back to class and get my butt in shape...have to go back to the lap band people and get an adjustment and am looking for a real life-in person-lap band support group...
I am going to buy some clothes that fit and move ahead to success!
I think I am also going to go to a therapist...when I can afford it!
Relationships are on hold right now because I have to work on myself...

Until later.....
cya l8 y'all!

Yes, I AM back!!

Hello, hello!!
I haven't checked in for a long time...sorry about that but I WILL explain. First of all I want to say that this blog will be taking a different direction. I will be blogging more often and with much more detail. I will be including pretty much all aspects of my life and not just the lap band experience. The past two months (as you will see later) has tested everything I believe and everything I thought I was. It has forced me to grow and really take a hard look at what goes on around me...

So join me for for this new journey...

Let's go back a bit....Christmas was great...my family was at my home for dinner and I really enjoyed having them. A huge shout out to my Papa (dad) for helping me put on a great dinner. New Years' Eve was a tough one..I was alone but I got through it...looking forward to a great new year.